Hi there LJ readers....

I've been absent from LJ for awhile, mainly because I've had nothing to write about. Alittle run down of whats been going on is in order i think. 1. I bought a new car, it's a VW Golf GTI 1.8T. It's fairly quick for such a small engine. I'm still debating on whether or not i want to modify it, more than likely not. 2. I'm in a band, and we play ROCK and ROLL. Well some people would call it rock, i call it crap. I'm not really happy with the direction we're going in, mainly covering 70's and 80's rock. I'm not really a huge fan of that era of music, and playing that crap is super boring. 3. More time spent under the tattoo needle. Got my underarm worked on, pretty much just color. It didn't really heal great, so touch-up work is in order. Pretty interesting life huh?

I'm went to a Halloween party this weekend at a good friend of mines house. I went as Superman, it was pure comedy. About 10 other people dressed up as various superheroes. We all got liquored up and drove around Tucson hollering various comments at people. After our rounds we headed back to the party with more beer, and about 100 new people to greet. Most fun i've had in a "super" long time. Pics coming when i get them.

I have around 5 days to heal from that night of binge drinking before i do it again. Nov. 5 being my birthday and all, I plan to spend the better part of that day drunk, at someone else's expense of course. I can hardly contain myself, i'm so excited. Other reasons for me too be excited, SAGE FRANCIS. Thats right, tomorrow I will be attending his show down at Club Congress. I wish a certain Baltimore friend was here to enjoy it with me. I plan on writing a in depth review of that show tomorrow night, yea right. Anyhow I really have to piss, so until later.

-iva-
"bag snatching isn't just for teenagers"

Ok so tonite may have been the most fun i've had in a long time. I went to go see Alkaline Trio and Reggie and the Full Effect tonight. They are touring with My Chemical Romance. I'm not real crazy about MCR, but i'd pay 100$ to go see Alk3. I went by myself due too people flaking on me. I need friends that feel the same way about music as I do. I feel like a creep going by myself, but screw it i had a blast. I normally show up early, wait in line for like 4 hours, and get the spot for the whole night. Tonight was different though. I showed up at like a hour till doors open, and got my 21 and over wristband. I didn't even go onto the floor, I went up to the balcony where they serve alcohol. Got me a Red Stripe and planted my ass in a seat. The show actually started on time, which is rare, and Reggie was up first. All in all a typical RATFE set, although super short, which is kinda dissapointing. No matter, Alkaline Trio would surely remedy that. After a quick equipment swap and sound check it was the Trio's turn to rock n roll. As many times as i've seen them , they always seem to do some creepy opening, this one was no exception. The stage grew dark and red lights started to shine randomly all around the stage, along with some rather erie pipe music. It gave me goose-bumps. The trio soon walked out and played a track from thier album Crimson. From start to finish it was one of the best Alk3 sets i've ever listened too. I left shortly after the trio finished, not really a fan of MCR.

i'm really not in the writing mood tonite, but i figured i should update this just to make use out of it. Maybe tomorrow will be different. We'll see.



-iva-

So yea it's been a fairly eventful week so far. Alot has happened since my last entry. Let's re-cap:

- New Supergirl is absolutely amazing. She is one of the baddest super-heroes around. Michael Turner is a God!

- New Runaways was a fairly good read, always intresting to see abandoned angst-ridden teens fight the forces of evil.

- Found out someone close to me has been lying to me for a couple of years, causing me to actually hate someone for the first time in my life.

- Season 2 of Lost premiered tonite, and it was grrrrrrrr-eat!!!!

- Season 5 of Smallville shows on Thurs. here, can't wait to see this season.

- Finally cleaned my Kindred Seal weapon, 500 points is alot to do by yourself.


I have to ride my motorcycle everywhere now, due to loss of a car. I like riding, it's fun and all, but putting all the gear on is like suiting up for some sort of War. A War on Traffic! Plus it's really hot here, and having all this extra clothes on doesn't make it any cooler. So i have to buy a car now. I was thinking of something with A/C. Actually i'm considering buying a VW Golf GTI. Those little bastards are quick.

I like to collect stuff, it's a vice I carry. I'm not a pack-rat I just like stuff, stupid stuff at that. Take for instance this shirt I bought at a local grocery store, not that i normally buy clothes at a grocery store. This shirt has a jolly roger on it, the skull and cross bones guy on a pirate flag, and it's say's "Candy Bandit" on the front. How cool is that? I figured it was around Halloween, I need to get into a better mood than what i'm currently in. That shirt certainly did it. well i think i may take a nap.


-iva-
"L33T"

Let me tell you a story about a man and a woman. For the purpose of this story their name will be John and Tammy. Now for all background purposes John and Tammy truely loved each other, and when their relationship took a turn for the unexpected, they made a life changing decision that may have jeopardized everything they worked to achieve. A baby was born, and two amazing people were located to take care of this child. John and Tammy thought long and hard about the benefits and consequences to giving this child up. Both decided that it was in this child's best intrest to give it a childhood neither John or Tammy had. So with this recent decision weighing on both thier heart's and mind, life carried on.

Fastforward 2 years. . .

John was called upon by his country to serve elsewhere in the world where he was needed. Leaving Tammy by herself with friends in which John could trust. John returned home two months later unaware that while he was away someone close to him was disloyal. Life went on great, and a few months past uneventful. One day John had the unshakeable urge to return to his childhood home, and confront a past which should have stayed in the past. John said words that should only be meant for a spouse, to another person from his past. John then kept this encounter hidden knowing that if this reached light he would sure have explaining to do. On the return trip they both learned a great deal about each other, and thier views on mistrust and disloyalty in a marriage, none of that information was very pleasant. John and Tammy not being home for 1 hour, John called a mutual friend, to explain the recent trip home over a cigar. This mutual friend thought thier was something John should know, and figured after hearing about this return trip conversation, that now was a great time to tell John. Now I know that information from people that weren't actually their can alot of the time be mistold. I can guarantee the info told to John is 100% accurate. This mutual friend told John that while he was away serving his country, Tammy had another friend of John's over after a round of billiards and drinks. One thing led to another, and well you can proably imagine what happened next. John's first thought was that this was not true, that Tammy could not possibly do this. John sat on this for a few days, and was going to wait until his roommate got home from his tour of duty to find any truth in this. John's roommate being the original source of this info. Seeing as how John's roomie returnd from work one night while this was going on, and noticed several unexplainable occurances happening. From walking in from outside and noticing a familiar motorcycle in the drive-way, to walking inside and noticing Tammy and guest no where to be found, then noticing the erie glow of a TV with no light's on creeping out from under John's bedroom. Finally hearing comotion coming from the room. Now I know it's weird how i inccooperated John's roommate into the story, but hey it's my story I can do whatever I want. If it is confusing, read it again, eventually it'll make sense.

back to John. . .

Several days later, John returns home from work , with i'm sure the afermentioned information on his mind, to be confronted by Tammy. They retreated into a quiet room to discuss what was on Tammy's mind. John's action's while on vacation were questioned, John told the truth and admited to Tammy that he said things he felt regret for saying. John then saw this as a perfect moment to ask Tammy about the information divulged to him earlier. Tammy's reaction was more like shock, she was quiet for what seemed like an eternity. John's heart sank so low that he felt he would never be able to dig it out of the hole it has just fell into. The information was true, what was suspected had actually happened. John did not know what to do, he argued with himself on the proper course of action to deal with this. Divorce? Work it out? Can I trust her again? Will I ever be able to trust anyone again? All questions John was dealing with in his mind. Ultiamtely John decided that people make mistakes, he remembers making one himself, and maybe the best decision for him was to try and work through this. I mean if they can do this just imagine how strong their relationship will be? A recovering marriage needs alot of attention, affection, understanding, and most importantly time to heal properly. John and Tammy gave all of that for a year, and in return encountered a fair amount of crying, screaming, and jealousy. Good things came out of this though, in what seemed like some healing and the possibility of a recovering marriage, alot of work was still needed for a healthy marriage. Unfortunately the most important element was taken away from them, Time. Tammy was called upon by her country to fight the good fight. John obviously grew worried, mainly because the uncertainty of their marriage was still blowing in the wind. They both accept this and decide that they will continue to try and build a healthy marriage. It will just take alittle longer. The day comes when Tammy is supposed to leave, and sad faces and wet shoulders were had by both, but this is a test that they will surely pass. Well during the length of 4 months they seemed to grow apart, so far apart indeed that they almost forgot about each other. Telephone calls were made several times, whether good or bad all of them ended with relutant "I love you's". John desperately missed his wife and hoped she still missed him. The day finally came when Tammy was to return home. John on the ride to the airport thinks about the tragedy and heartache had between the 2 of them, and just wanted to have his wife safely back into his arms, and tell her how much he missed her and how much he loved her. A new life awaited John and Tammy, all he had to was show up at the airport, and greet his wife. Stricken with anxiety and anticipation, John wait's impaitently as Tammy walks down the concourse, her eyes not meeting with his. As John anticipates his welcome back hug and kiss, Tammy avoids any contact with John and greets all of her surperiors there to welcome her home. John then makes a move towards her to welcome her back with a warm and kiss, and quickly learns that Tammy does not want his affection. John's heart shatters into a thousand pieces. All of the resentment for Tammy's past actions flood him, and he questions in his mind what he did to deserve this. This questioning continues the car ride home and several hours into the night. Not so much as 2 words were spoken between the 2 of them the whole night, no hello's, no i'm glad to have you back, not even a i love you. John not knowing what to think or do, does the only thing he thinks is the right thing. He leaves never to return.

THE END.

sorry for all the puncuation and grammatical errors, but I never did really well in any english or litterature type class, so why should now be any exception?

intresting side note, i dare anyone to think of pain worse than being rejected by a person you haven't seen in 4 months, and have wanted nothing more than to just tell that person how much you love them and missed them. I guess that means it's the end huh?

12 HOURS TILL NEW SMALLVILLE!!!!!! ok so maybe i shouldn't be that excited, but it's exciting cause it means i get to continue the story and have something to do at work. Also for those who haven't seen this masterpiece, Prison Break, 8:00 PM PST on Fox. This show is just, wow. Hope it doesn't suck towards the end.


All that hard work paid off. Thats right KI finally got it's first Ridill off that stingy bastard Fafnir, congratulations Ataru, you certainly deserved it. This sword is godly, maybe the most sought after weapon in game. Every since the new fix with the claiming system NA have been reaking havoc on the 3 ground kings, thus proving that the JP have no skill just good connections.





Took some advice last night and reworled my ninja set-up, and it was for the better. I'm not big on having a ton of macros, but lemme tell ya it was awsome. Had a Warrior with full AF that couldn't turn the monster voking every 30 sec and warcry. I swear my ego grew rather large yesterday. Although it was popped shortly after when i was caught with my shadows down and recieved a smite of rage in the face. Oh well I steadily crawl closer to the infamous level 75. Hopefully i can get some Byakko pants by that time. all for now.


-iva-

Welp another weekend down. Not much happened, which is good i suppose. Got my tattoo worked on, and i'll say this, I think Jen(the artist) is one of the coolest, and most talented people i know. Must just be people named Jen, :P. Alittle advice, never get a tattoo on and empty stomach cause that's bad times. Nevertheless it looks phenomenal, and i can't wait to go back and get more done. Watched a most terrible moivie this weekend, The Brothers Grimm. Seeing these kind of movies makes me wonder if enough money is thrown around in Hollywood anything will make it to the big screen. I would seriously wait until this comes out on HBO, and that in itself may still be too soon. Other than that nothing really happened, played alot of FFXI, and rode my motorcycle up the mountain here. Was a really peaceful ride. Makes me wonder sometimes why i neglect the daytime so much.

I think more went on inside my head this weekend than anything else. This weekend was a very nostalgic one for me, and first off let me say that i hate nostalgia. It normally makes me feel some kind sort of sadness or loneliness that i've tried to put in my past, but a smell or sight dredges up these wonderful memories. This time it was a smell. I caught driving somewhere on friday, and it brought up a childhood memory of this girl in elementary school that i had this huge crush on, she happened to live a block away from me, and I would ride my bike down her street every once in awhile, and it seemed that only her house had this sweet, pleasant aroma surronding it. The minute i was passed it was was gone, but I can not forget that smell. It has the power to put me at ease no matter how stressed i am, and i'm instantly transported back to my childhood. Almost like i'm back riding my bike past her house again waiting for her to come out and greet me. It's a sad memory, mainly because I don't know what happened to that girl. As the familiar aroma only lasted for a second or two, i spent the rest of the weekend replaying that memory and thinking of this girl. I hate it.

The times grows closer to me leaving for mississippi to go lend a helping hand for the hurricane relief. Not sure how i feel about this. It's nice to go help out, these people certainly need it, but someone is coming home after being away for 4 months, and ALOT of air needs clearing. I kind of feel obligated to straighten this aspect of my life out. Something to which i am not looking forward too. Another wonderful memory waiting to be created, just so some smell or sight can let me remember it again.

I have to be the most inactive active LS member alive. I'm always on, and yet never go do anything with the LS, i attribute that to my completely normal work schedule, and light workload. I know we as a LS have been doing alot lately and i feel alittle seperated from them because i normally don't go. I'm really trying to finish ninja so i can be a bigger help at alot of events. Would be nice to get back into the normal swing of things, with Gods and the occasional BCNM, but so many people seemed to be preoccupied with other things. Had a run-in with a GM this weekend, here's the story. Was at a dungeon with 2 friends trying to clean my weapon so i can proceed with getting my long waited, yet useless, weapon-skill. While completely obliterating the helpless crabs we stubbled across a freshly un-claimed lizard by the name of Amemet. Now I know there are people in this area in which there only occupation in life is to claim and kill this baddie then sell his drops. alot of innocent lifes have been lost of people who have tried to camp against these guys, mine being one of them. I tell my friends what i've found, and we decide that we'll try to fight it, with just the 3 of us. I engage and start to debuff it, we'll low and behold on those people run up the tunnel and see their precious money maker claimed, will they just admit defeat and move on? Nope. On of the Beastmasters mutter the word "no" and then proceed to charm a lizard from up the tunnel and bring him to us, release him, and sit there waiting. So I move out of the way careful not to aggro the surronding crabs or this newly aquired lizard. Well the BST trots back up the path with a Cactar type baddie, release then waits. Now I have no other choice but to quickly move, and in doing so agro the other lizard. Well long story short 3 people are no match for 2 lizards, one of them being alot tougher. So I did the most rational thing i could do. Call a GM before i died, this is because once you die you can't do anything, especially call for help, as i lay dead watching these people kill the afermentioned monster, i find a raise and recieve a reply from the GM, knowing well enough nothing was going to become of this conversation, I shortly just reported the name and what events took place. After that I recieved the what seems like a auto-reply of "we're looking into this matter, thank you for your call" I logged. On a lighter note, i finally got my quested weaponskill out of the way, thanks a ton to Valpurgis, Joshporksandwhich, and Gettling for helping with this. It only took about 2 times doing this weaponskill to realize that it is completely worthless, but hey it looks cool.


-iva-

"breaking hearts since 1980"

that has to be the truest statement i've heard in quite some time. Only have the urge to go home and disapear into a sea of blankets for days on end. Can't do that though, gotta pay the bills. Had probably one of the worst days i've had in months. Aside from working 14+ hours and feeling like i've accomplished nothing, driving home from work this morning i got pulled over by this motorcycle cop who felt it necesary to print me out a ticket, that's right i said print, now i haven't gotten a ticket in a long time, but i didn't think we've advanced that far to where cops no longer have write out a ticket, it takes all the intimacy out of getting pulled over. I felt very used and devoid of trying to squirm out of it. oh well we live and learn. 200 dollar mistake all i can say, could be worse. After that i get home and try to sleep . . . nope. Nothing beats trying to sleep during the day with world waking and starting it's day. Not that I really need sleep. I never feel rested anymore so I guess whats it matter if i actually do rest, no matter about 4 hours later I arise from my restless slumber to find my kitchen looking like New Orleans. After some keen detective work I narrow the leak down my dog's water jug leaking some way. Ok so maybe not as bad as it coulda been.

On a much cooler note, i talked again with this amazing new friend i met on-line. Seeing as how I don't really communicate well with people over phone-lines, this is a significant accomplishment for me. I hope this friendship last's for awhile, she seems like a person i'd really enjoy getting to know. Those kinda friends you don't meet that often, and when you find them , it certainly is a good idea to have them hang around. I also bought these cool halloween candles from the store tonight, i post some pics shortly. I'm back work on my 8 night without a day off.


Played FFXI alittle today, not much to report. My NPC friend and I ripped shit up, and I XP'd my Ninja. Once proving my point that Ninja properly done is the greatest job of all time. Anyway it's 1130 PM here and i'm cutting into my Lost DVD watching time, so ima crack open my sunkist put my feet on the desk and be lazy for about 7 hours.




-iva-

And so as my birth lies under 5 ft. of water, I push on with these entries. On to FFXI I'm making slow progress forward in the Chains of Promantia missions, I'm about half way through chapter 4, best part was that I had to fight this big ass dragon. It was a tough fight we almost lost, but our skill surpassed and we came out triumphant. anyway I got a neat title, sortof

whoever decided to try Baily's Irish liquor and Jamison's Whiskey together in a shot glass then drop it into a half full glass of Guinness is my hero, and my enemy. O how they hurt so much afterwards. I got a haircut today, and the newest ep. of Ghost in the Shell 2nd Gig released, joy!!!!

Well, last nite I drove to phoenix at 1 in the morning to go bring my house guest to the airport. That has to be the most excruciating drive i've had to encounter, next to driving the span of Texas on the same road. The desert sucks so much, nothing to look at except dirt. On a better note, hopefully my tattoo artist will have the stuff I brought her drawn up, and I can start getting poked. That should take my mind of alot of things for awhile.

So I started playing FFXI again, and it seems that I made the right choice with quiting the first time. Still doesn't interest me, guess i'll stick with Guild War's and killing the North Vietnamese.